Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

First post in 2009. Wow, how time flies. You know, I can still remember my highschool days vividly, and i still can't imagine that I'm actually 25 now. It's like... Wow...

So another year has passed. Not the best of years, but at least better than 2007. Made some money, some new friends, of those friends some become enemies, some become more than friends. Made my debut in the club, tasted my first beer, fell in a swimming pool with my handphone, got a laptop, and got more friends online. Made enemy with my boss, got my first letter of termination, learned a few lessons on socializing, and a few more on other stuffs. It's a year with a good mix of blessings and curses, but yes, better than the previous year.

Come 2009, I hope that I'll be blessed with the following: A job I'm proud to do, and am happy to do it on a daily basis; a place i can call my own, of which i find sanctuary; and someone I can claim as my lover, of whom I can share my sadness (especially) and my joy. Will it come in a bundle? I don't know. I have a whole year to find out.

As an end note:
HAPPY NEW YEAR. MAY 2009 BRINGS THE BEST OF WHAT YOU CAN BE

On adversity

Quote:	It doesn't make any difference whether what you face is something that affects your work, your personal relationships, your sense of security, your appraisal of self-worth, or your appearance--the way you think about your situation largely determines whether you will do anything about it and what you will do.
Author:	Dr. Arthur Freeman and Rose DeWolf
Source:	The 10 Dumbest Mistakes Smart People Make and How to Avoid Them: Simple and Sure Techniques for Gaining Greater Control of Your Life by Arthur Freeman

Reminds me of the audiobook I listened to, by Wayne Dyer: When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. Hmm...

Between growing up, and growing old

Recently, I got myself into a mess. A mess which started as something that has nothing to do with me. But, since I'm a hopeless busy-body, I got myself in the crossfire. And wow, what an eye-opening experience. Through the period (still going through it, by the way) I get to see, and experience myself, how the creature called human acts. From it I gauge my own maturity, as well as people who were involved in the situation. And it got me thinking, "Here I am, in this kind of situation, and I see people older than me acting way immature than I am, and people younger than me, acting more matured than I can ever imagine myself acting. Why is it so? Shouldn't older people act more matured, since they have more experience?"

So what actually denotes someone's maturity? Mindset? The book they read? The way they talk? How they talk about others? I guess my reading is still far from sufficient...

Caught in a cross-fire

Lesson learnt: when 2 of your friends are in a feud, and you don't want to take side, just stay clear. Stay away from them, not to mean you ditch them, just observe until the feud ends. Do not at any time give any opinions unless both of them are in the same room with you. Last but not least, don't even think of intervening if you're sick, jobless, and broke!

Back to the unemployed status O_o

What a day. Got a 24-hours notice to leave the office, because I bad-mouthed the MD. Well, that's my fault, so the best action for me is to bear the consequence and make no fuss of it. Now i have a few options:

- brush up my writing skills and research skills, and venture into publishing as a freelance
- do a bit more reading on HR matters, and choose my specialization
- look for office administration-related jobs
- wait for my payslip, apply for a credit limit extension, and do an internet-based business

Hmm... Come to think about it, now I have the time I needed to clean my room, etc. I've been dying to take a picture from the lookout point nearby as well. I guess this is what they meant by "every negative event contains a seed of greater or comparable positive outcome".

After a long hiatus

Oh, what a good night sleep (without the urge to sleep in my birthday suit). Sleeping in a bed sure beats sleeping on a thin mattress on the floor. Can't wait for my king-(or is it queen-)sized bed and mattress to arrive nyahaha. Definitely my beauty sleep will be refined XD.

Life had been a bit hectic, but improving. Got a job with salary. Well, it's not really a heavenly job with heavenly salary and heavenly boss, but at least I have salary. No point working with a heavenly company and reporting to someone who pretends to be a heavenly person, but no salary. Nothing comes for free, and no one deserves to be grossly underpaid.

With my salary, I managed to get myself a pair of Credit Cards (yep, monsters they are), which I used to pay my outstanding bills, get myself a laptop (Asus. Gotta love 'em), a handphone (SonyEricsson K810i, black. I'm a sucker for black-colored items. But not black-colored people. I admit I am racist, but at least I'm honest), some new clothes, new shoes. Life definitely is getting better.

And I've improved my social life as well. Met up with new people (which I will introduce in my next post. Need their approval after all). Some as friends, some as enemies. We go out yumcha together, had gatherings, shared our laughters and tears (ok, this part might be a bit exaggerated. But I'd hope that we will be able to trust eachother to that extend).

But one part of my life is still stagnant: My love life.

To be honest, I can't imagine myself being in a relationship. I, who is a sucker for romantic literatures (both in the form of audio, video, and whatever form it may manifest itself), cannot comprehend how love starts. I know how it is nurtured, and got to the phase of being in full bloom. But I don't know how the seeds of love get into the picture. Funny isn't it?

Maybe it's because of my orientation. Being gay means being a minority. Being a minority in a minority sucks. Plus the fact of my stubbornness (or should I say stupidity?), clinging to an unrequited crush for a certain someone, who kept the issue open, yet never wanted to discuss about it (he said it's a stupid matter. Gosh, my feelings for you is a stupid matter... And yet I'm still in love with you. I must be darn stupid...).

Sigh. Well, as a closing for this post, let me share with you the things i wish to have in the next 24 months:

1. New place to stay, preferably within proximity of a STAR-LRT or PUTRA-LRT station.
2. Better job with better pay with better person to report to.
3. Someone to call my own... And not just as a bestfriend. I want someone to share my all with. Literally all... Well, except certain personal stuffs. You wouldn't share your underwear, would you?
4. 50k personal loan. For investment and capital purposes. I only have 5 years from now, you see...

Ok, time to stop. Gonna take my bath, and head out to Pandan Indah for my assignment. Then KLCC, then LowYat, then Hartamas, then Maluri. And tonite, clubbing at Barcelona Club. I wonder if VBoi will try to make EVERYONE drunk *sweat*. Yeah, I drink. Not much of a good person I am.

Ok, see y'all. May your day be long, and your hardship few *giggle*

Chicken Soup for the Malaysian Soul

Hi there . Now, how long has it been since the last time I posted? Well, life has been a bit harsh on me. But I know, it is because life is preparing me for something bigger. Something that the current me can never comprehend. Thus, all the hardship I'm facing right now. But hey, we're talking about being positive here, so let's put the depressing talk aside.

What I wanted to talk about today, in this post, is about something that has been in my mind since last year. Have you guys read the book Chicken Soup for the Soul? When I was younger, they even made a TV series based on the stories featured in that book. Since then, there had been various other chicken soup books published, due to the impact brought by the stories featured. So a thought came into my mind, "Hey, it's about time we have a Chicken Soup book for Malaysian." Now, I'm not looking for an avenue for profit. I just want to have an avenue where people share their most motivating, life-changing, inspiring stories with other Malaysians, as well as the world. So the most I can promise for now is a Teh Tarik session at a mamak stall of your preference.

So, I need you to help me to:

1. Send me 1 (one) motivating, life-changing, and inspiring story that you had experienced PERSONALLY. It must be a true story, not an adaptation of any sort. Please include your personal details (name, contact number) as well, so that we can have the teh tarik session I promised. Stories are to be sent to my personal email: radicalscope@gmail.com.
   
2. Next, recommend me 3 people whom you know would be able to provide me with stories of the same or greater impact. All I need is their name and email address. If they don't do emails, a phone number would do as well.

The stories, once compiled, will be sent to Jack Canfield, the original author of the Chicken Soup series. If he lets me publish the book under my name, or with me as the co-author, I'll share with you all whatever I get from the book. But the teh tarik session is a confirmed promise.

Okay, that's all for now. Looking for ward for the wonderful stories that you have in store for me, and the people you'd like me to meet for more stories. And thank you in advance. Lord bless you all with happiness beyond imagination.